Sunday, August 30, 2009

through the eyes of a fly


wow i've been posting everyday ... just proves how bored i am. but this is healthy



Through the Eyes of a Fly

I shamelessly watch the mother with two children. Beyond the thick glass with posters patched, the man immersed in his rectangular object, and the small plants resting in their oversized pots.

From the front they looked like the "ideal" family, the "american dream"
the children with beautiful, blindingly bright curls. The woman with the bulky plastic bags. and the man, most likely at work in his perfect suit.

The view from the back, just a 180 degree change portrayed the unseemly:
spiderveins taking refuge below the crease that marked her artificially darkened thigh.
frustration caused by the heat i was foreign to. the kids' cries for a drink from the machine, i was still deaf to.

She hands the unfolded bill to the older boy. the son, hesitated to make sure the president faced the right direction. She nods, now loosening her grip on the burdensome bags. his small hand slaps onto the lifesized bottle of water protruding from the machine.
You would think that the distressed family now walks away with the Aquafina, but it is time for the younger daughter to speak. I molded my own words to her mouth:
i want mine to mommy -- she hands another green bill to her.

i continue my disturbingly close observation of the family, as the unusually fattened boy struggles to reach for the bottle, still dwelling in the cold provided by the rectangular cube hooked to the wall. but all it needed was a bigger, bonier, older hand to fix the door.

They finally leave, marking the end of my means of escaping boredom.
and i wait, drenched in complacency of my narrations
eager for another image to appear beyond the thick glass patched with posters.

Friday, August 28, 2009

interesting

from a Natural History of Love

The purpose of ritual for men is to learn the rules of power and competition.... The purpose of ritual for women... is to learn how to make human connections. They are often more intimate and vulnerable with one another than they are with their men, and taking care of other women teaches them to take care of themselves. In these formal ways, men and women domesticate their emotional lives. But their strategies are different, their biological itineraries are different. His sperm needs to travel, her egg needs to settle down. It's astonishing that they survive happily at all.

Diane Ackerman

dont know if i agree

Thursday, August 27, 2009

untitled

trying to stop myself from indulging in lazy mornings

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

a man said to the universe





A man said to the universe:
“Sir, I exist!”
“However,” replied the universe,
“The fact has not created in me
A sense of obligation.”

stephen crane

naturalism

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

untitled



i'm confused
lets see what this looks like