Funeral

Their veins were filled with blood thick and viscous

Black suits, black dresses, spread out and scattered

Whispers escape their teeth mumble "Jesus"

Soon, he will turn to ashes gray as stone

And we watch him in his slumber she weeps-

Dry tears, they cannot reach down her cheekbones

While we whisper "Amen" the organ plays.

We watch him tightly bound in cold glory

She weeps. Soon, he'll be ashes fine and gray

Blank expressions and routinelike gestures

They shuffle along the stained old carpet

Towered flowers stand tall for the picture

For now he dwells in a lonely garden

They leave, their veins with blood thick and viscous

She weeps and walks with bones that never harden.

First day of work!

i don't have much to say. i've been praying for a thankful heart, and definitely God's been providing me the mindset of appreciating what I have. Watching "waiting for superman" made me REALLY appreciate the education I received in a prestigious school like University High School. I'm guessing you guys watched the documentary? I've only bawled my eyes out for two films. One is "Kung Fu Panda 2" mostly because I was experiencing hormonal imbalances, and the other is this documentary. So thank you God for letting me learn for four years, letting me learn to love learning, letting me have great teachers, great books, and great students around me.

now i'm sitting at a coffeeshop near work. Thank you God that i have a job, because i know lots of people that are trying to get jobs and have been trying for a while now. I was blessed with connections.

Summer has officially started, and it started off on the right foot. Any suggested readings?? I realized I get lots of time to kill since i'm choosing the bus as my mode of transportation. Some of it will be used to blogging like right now, some will just be set for daydreaming, and the rest, i'm hoping, will be saved for reading. I'm planning to compile a list of books.

beware of sharp tongues!

i do not like- let's fix that- i am not fit for today's culture of jesting and "playing around."

we became verbal contenders, armed with words of wit and rapid remarks, sharpening our tongues while playfully joking among friends and family. it is fun. when you have successfully "burned" someone, or when you admit that what your friend has said about you is quite true. i can handle truth, especially when it's delivered so insidiously. but back to my point, i am not fit for the way people interact nowadays. i am not quick enough for sarcastic comments, nor am i prepared for rebuttals on spot. im just not wired that way. i prefer to keep my tongue dull and blunted.

don't get me wrong, i love this sport. i just love watching it.

my shoulders hurt. it's about time i ditch the backpack. come on Summer, we're all waiting on you.

it is in moments like these i rely heavier on Him. Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. I hope for many things, but are those aligned with what God wants? This is the moment where I want Him to intervene and tell me what to do.

I'm clicking my way to confirming a path that will dictate the next four of years of this life. Hoping that God's will is behind it, hoping that it was not my own stubbornness that made this happen, hoping that this is a true act of faith. I pray to Him that my voice is not smothering His. I am giving this one more day.

someone like you - adele

ice water- cat power

dance dance dance- lykke li

together- the raconteurs

the new lupe fiaso album.

This serves as more of a note to self. Check when lent is over!

I can't believe we're almost halfway through april. Time flies too fast.

!!!!

I am officially delivering the news to yalls: UC Berkeley has admitted me!

Now there is a BUT to this, but I will focus on what I've been blessed with, and that is the fact that I have a "dream" school that I can now consider a reality. So thank you God thank you God thank you God. I will tell you what exactly happened, mostly for reasons of keeping record (I picture myself looking back to this post and smiling). I was at a library, doing homework, with the buddies. They have all applied to this school, so we all knew this letter was sitting in each of our mailboxes (all this is electronic fyi). All my friends checked before I did, and these kids... are smart kids. They have gotten into better schools than this one, and YES they were admitted.

Im tired of telling the story now, so im going to stop. I should remember this moment no matter where I am or how old I am, because this is one of those moments. Future Irene, you KNOW this was by His will, because you even whispered it to yourself before you clicked on that button.

To explain about the BUT part, I am admitted for the spring quarter, not the fall. this means, i BARELY made it, and this makes me even more thankful. It was like God telling me, "hey, Irene, that was really close. You know this is all me haha" He's a smart guy.

I need you guys to keep praying for me, there are more schools I am waiting on. I'm happy with what I have, but if any of these letters carry good news, God definitely wants me out of California. More updates to come this week. I love you guys.

Oby, happy birthday!

Grace see you friday!

Jacqulyn I miss you!