i find myself enjoying too much of what i already have. yes, that sounds like a good thing, but i should be working for things that i don't always have so i have newfound joy. for instance, it's weird that i would much rather spend time with my sisters than my friends from school. i guess to reiterate it, i think i refuse to invest parts of me to better my friendships. and "invest" fits perfectly. just a thought in my head i wanted to share