Tomorrow

¹³ Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” ¹⁴ Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. ¹⁵ Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”
James 13-15

The world makes me feel like I am very very important. Half my brainpower is spent on worrying about the future. What college will I go to? Where will I live? Will I be comfortable?
These questions, I feel, stem not from me but from the world. The world has given me a role to play. Whether it be a student, a sister, a friend, a Korean American, a Christian, there is a standard in which we do about things. And the pressure of having to meet that standard, to fulfill that role, not only brings us down, but also gives us the feeling of existence.
My challenge is, that I'll find my existence in God. I must constantly remind myself that I am merely a mist that will vanish. Yes, I have a hard time accepting that. God always makes me feel small, and no one wants to feel weak. But it's funny how He always comes with paradoxes. These moments, when I completely submit myself, are moments when I am most empowered. And I guess that's the answer to how we find existence in God. Finding strength through Him, having confidence in Him - this is how I can have peace in my heart. This is how I should really exist.

So tomorrow, I will wake up and tell Him: “If it is the Lord’s will, I will live and do this or that.”