lukewarm

today was a full day. i call it full, because i have this image in my head where i personify my 9.9.09 day to be physically full with a giant belly. but yes, today was satisfying. a day spent with good food, good music, good friends, and good "me".
a book taught me today that i'm lukewarm. nobody likes lukewarm.
we all prefer extremities. or we think that way, because moderation is invisible.
i see fat people, or skinny people. overly nice or demonic people. black or white.
things in the middle just don't attract my eyes.
but yes. i officially call me lukewarm, and surprisingly i am comforted. i know which post-it i am filed under in his big office. sounds pathetic, but i admit, i am more complacent with a label.

i am anxious for the first time in months. last day of summer. last twenty three minutes before i dive back into the cycle, the routine.
but one of the many things i am happy about today, is that i bought my first ever cd with my OWN money. technology has made purchasing cds and records unnecessary. and also writing letters and postcards. it was nice to soak myself in the refreshing authenticity.