went to school yesterday for registering. it only reminded me how young i still am, and how much more i still have to learn. but simultaneously hit me that time flies. i realized that i am an introvert.
i like to avoid people and convince myself that they don't know i try to do so.

morning starts late in this house for majority of this family. so i'm typing in a dark room even though it's california sunny outside. comparisons kill me. i realized i juxtapose everything: from my bowl of rice to another, a building to a house, and the most damaging, myself to my friends.
the standard is too high for these overachieving, upperclass, (asian) folks and it's time i embrace that and let it go. but i like to keep that ruler next to me, and measure myself next to them... persuading myself that it is only an instrument that motivates me.
achievements weigh more than many things, and i let that drive me.