today

today was too hot. woke up earlier than usual.
had a hard time trying to "peel the onion," which is the method used to allow a person to shed his layers and to get to the core... in a conversation
too technical for me.

this time i'm not in the dark. i have a dim light to guide my fingers onto these worn out keys.
this time i'm not alone. i have two people sitting on a table beside me
but this time i'm stuck. i shouldnt force myself to write.
i keep thinking once i start trying to let words flow out of me, it will evoke this latent source of ideas to write about to vent about, to release.
but today i have none. so i stop. period. but i dont want to....
hmmm

so i'll talk about today
i finished an inNout double double in record time. and i felt like a man. or a hungry growing girl.
ok nomore.